Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Moving out

I activated my wordpress account!!! :D

Am outta here, but i need to move my luggage thats the worst part abt moving out :)

Saturday, February 13, 2010


Enjoying my new book "Siddhartha" by Herman Hesse (Winner of the Nobel prize in Literature).

The originial publication for this book was in the year 1922.

I recommend!


Saturday, January 23, 2010

La gelosia, l'orgoglio, la sensibilità, la colpa

One thing that i recently discovered abt myself is that i am a VERY JEALOUS person.
im jealous when u least expect it and im not when its most commonly that i should.

I also learned that too much pride can hurt... i have too much PRIDE!

Naturally after knowing that i have too much pride comes the discovery of me being too SENSITIVE at the silliest of things.

Lately i caught myself having this tendency of BLAMING others for my crap. im glad i caught that soon before it grows like a bad cancer.

This brings me to the thought of, should "Blame" be an option in the first place?
i mean is there situations where blaming would seem to be perfectly fine and in context.

Having to have quickly thought abt it, i think that "Blame" in any situation is a primary sign of weakness...

Friday, January 15, 2010


Have I ever mentioned that I have a "positive diary", it’s a dairy I bought about a year ago, and I decided not to write anything negative in it, at the beginning of every new entry I would write at the top right of the page "keep it positive"!
That forces me to focus only on the full half of the cup and see nothing but it! :)

Here I am allowed to spill it all out the way I wish to, because here my tips touch nothing but mute cold plastic, and the letters iam supposedly writing do not carry my identity.
But with my diary its different it’s real paper with a significant scent and texture paper that has my handwriting my identity. My diary simply breaths!

So if I’m writing abt something bad that has happened, I have to make it sound optimistic and full of light at the end...LIGHT!

Light is a word that is able to bring me instant comfort, sense of security and a kind sense of power.

And as I didn’t allow negativity to reach my diary for as it is dear and precious to me, I don’t want it to reach my friends and the people I care abt most.

For instance today when I was at Cindy’s I could feel my negative presence haunt the room were in, a feeling I hated... a feeling I don’t like to feel and can hardly control these days.

And because I care, I sometimes need some distance to allow me to overcome that negative aura of mine... coz I believe it’s contagious!

I don’t know but Cindy is probably reading this and cursing at me or something.

Girl I want u to know that I need that badly... I just hate it when every time we hang out I seem so gloomy... I DO NOT want to be remembered that way and I do not want to complain coz there is nothing actually to complain abt el7amdolelah!

My life is amazing and I keep forgetting that, I’ve been offered so much and I keep forgetting that, I have dreams, am powerful, am talented and I keep forgetting that am a good person and I JUST KEEP FORGETTING THAT!!!

I need to keep a distance so I can see things from a bird’s eye view so I can see the real size of everything... so I can remember again!

I need to wake up and make new plans and finish old ones.

I need to recollect myself again.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

When you know

When you know that you know who you love, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow.
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close
Cos you know and you know that you know.

You can feel love's around you like the sky 'round blue
This is how love has found you, now you know what to do.

When you know that you know who you need, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

And it's time you come in from the cold.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009


Its been a year and 22 days now since my very first post ever :)